In Conversation x ADMT

Interview By: Nandini Bhattacharya
Words by: Anya Duncan
Images Courtesy: The Small Print Agency

ADMT on Darkness, Discovery, and Finding His Voice

“When it happened to me, it just made me realise how dark and how uncomfortable and how sad it is to be in that place. How lonely it is.”

When ADMT walks on stage these days, he carries more than a microphone; there’s a lived-in honesty that colours his lyrics. The Doncaster-born musician has always been a storyteller, but his new work is marked by a quiet urgency. A need to reach people who might be standing where he once stood, alone.

“I think I was always somebody who never ever thought they would experience issues with mental health,” he says, recalling the moment his perspective first shifted. “I thought I would be fine. I thought I was untouchable. At points (as all people do when they haven’t experienced something or don’t understand something) you question it. Like, why do people do that? Why do people take their own lives?”

That loneliness became the spark for Overboard, one of his most emotionally reflective songs to date. “I just wrote it because I can't stand the thought of someone being lonely or feeling lonely, as cliché as it sounds. I can't stand the thought of us all being here, sharing this space and still feeling like we don't have a community.” He pauses. It was clear to see that Adam Taylor is full of contemplation, and an urgent kindness that compels his hands to create music that can infiltrate the darkness.

“There’s not many things that I think hurt as much as knowing that some people you know are in that position.” This urge to connect is threaded through ADMT’s music. “The lyrics say ‘I want you to know that I see you and your voice to me will always be heard’ because a lot of the time, that's all we need. To be recognised for our individuality and our humanity regardless of race, gender, sexual preference; nothing matters. It all comes back down to being human.”

For Adam, this new chapter is as much about process as product. He describes creative work that is deliberately emotional, triggered by chords or phrases that catch in his mind like flint.

This commitment to emotional honesty extends beyond the studio. ADMT speaks equally candidly about his journey into therapy: “I've done two types of therapy. I'm doing one now that’s like a rapid eye movement therapy. It links both sides of your brain and you go back to traumatic events in your life, and it helps you deal with the emotions there. It can also help you move forward. That's been incredible; one of the best things I've ever done!” The breakthrough moments, he says, come in small, surprising ways. “You think you know yourself so well until you sit with somebody and they say something to you, and you go ‘ah’. You’ve got to go in knowing that you need to understand yourself more. I think I just learned a lot from being open to understanding myself and my flaws.”

Therapy isn’t his only tool. “I go to the gym every morning, which clears my brain. I do breath work. I think just accepting life for what it is; it’s like a stock market going up and down. I gained a lot of peace by going, ‘we're going to work towards our goals and I'm going to work hard, but you can't guarantee what's going to happen’.”

Despite the heaviness of these themes, there is hope running through Adam’s words. After taking the time to better understand his own darkness, he is determined to use his music as a way to uplift anyone he can. His most recent shows — free events held around the streets of Yorkshire where he first started busking — are a part of that mission.

“If I can afford to live, and then also do some things for people who maybe can't afford to come to shows, I will. My fan base is quite broad. Some kids can't get into venues. So why not? I think people deserve to see music. Everything's so expensive now, I just don't think that's right. It makes me feel like I'm building a community of people who actually get it and care about other people.”

That sense of community is especially poignant when he returns home. “I played a show on the free tour we've just done in my hometown, and you know, I used to busk there every now and again. No one would stop or watch or listen. I think seeing how many people was actually there was a bit of like a, ‘oh… I think we might be doing this right’. It was amazing to see the support. That was a bit of a moment, to be honest.”

Looking ahead, ADMT is determined to keep telling every part of his story. “I think a story has to have all emotions in it for it to be a story. I don't think it should be one thing. It shouldn't just be love songs; it shouldn't just be mental health songs; it shouldn't just be happy songs, or me talking about going out on a bender. It should be all of that because that is part of the story. That's what makes it real.”

It’s a philosophy that feels true to his journey so far. The lows are there, unflinching and unedited, but so is the light that got him through. The narrative ADMT is writing now is one of connection. While there is still healing to be done, there is also hope. Hope that someone else might feel a little less alone when they hear Adam’s music.

That’s enough for him.

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